October 28, 2015

D-???

It had to happen, and eventually it happened. I had been expecting it for some time now, I was prepared, I thought I was prepared.

At 5 o'clock of a pretty messed up afternoon my boss called me into his office and announced that the company I have been working for since 2000 had decided to terminate our contract. 

Not for performance problems, which in recent years has always been more than satisfactory. 

Not for incompatibility issues of character, as my boss and I have always worked well together. 

Not for problems of business results, since the company has been generating profits practically forever.

Simply because I cost too much. 

It was not a shock, the signs were already there and if you  like me, have spent a life working for a in "multinational companies modernly organized" must know how to read between the lines if you want to survive. 

Of course, I came out of that conversation quite unbalanced, but conscious of being in front at a pivotal moment in my life, a "tipping point" in which a little push in one direction or another will characterize my next ten or fifteen years. 

I grew up in the eighties, with a degree in Economics at Bocconi University, I am over 45 (although only a little), I have been working for over twenty years and have been a C level manager for the past fifteen. 

I love writing, it helps me to rationalize and I use it to throw out whatever I have inside me, so I decided to note facts and impressions of the battle that I am going to fight against the monster that today, apart from illnesses, is the event most feared: running out of a job